Nerves, Nerves, Nerves

Yesterday (Monday) was torture. I stayed at home in the living room all day, stuck in front of the computer, researching companies and revisiting job listing sites for hours on end. Meanwhile, our giant wall clock was ticking away and making me even more aware of the time passing.

The same thing's happening right now.

This morning, though, I "pounded the pavement," as they say, and brought my CV directly to several company offices in Soho, where many UK film and TV companies are based. Some of them are hidden, though, and others look like they might be directly associated with production when they're actually graphic design companies, marketing firms, or even post-production (picture and sound editing) facilities--work that I'm not exactly geared toward for the long run. My plan was to hand out ten CVs, but I only wound up submitting to three places; I may try again tomorrow or Thursday and start out with better preparation.

In the meantime, very few job listings have gone up, though they usually hit in the afternoon, so I'll stay hopeful about that. I've also been in touch with a recruitment consultant who wants to meet with me later this week to discuss temp work, though even she admitted that things were "slow" these days, with fewer jobs coming in.

This really may be the most nerve-wracking experience I've had to date, not knowing if or when someone will get in contact with a decision that would directly affect my future. I hate to be so fearful at this stage, since I've only been here for a little over a week now (and unemployed for slightly over two weeks in total). It could very well continue for another two weeks or even a month, though Lordy Lordy, I hope it won't be too long now. I'm craving an interview more than anything in life right now (even more than food, and I actually forgot to eat lunch).

The good things, however:

• Daniel taught me how to play chess last night and then let me win.
• Today's his birthday, and on Saturday night we all head to a comedy show to celebrate it.
  
• We might go zorbing in honour of my birthday.
• Natalie's enjoying her internship in Stratford-upon-Avon.
  
• Today it rained for the first time since I got here, and even then it was just a sprinkling.
• I may meet Terry Gilliam at a screening of Brazil on Saturday afternoon.
• I may reconnect with a long-lost English friend soon.
  
• It's sunny again now.